I’ve spent much of the last few days in deep thought and soul searching to some degree, along the lines of “what am I doing with my life”/ “what is my purpose”.
Looking at my skills and interests, I concluded that coaching is definitely what I should be doing and I’m on the right track. Much of my other projects are fulfilling prior obligations, and collecting extra knowledge and expensive pieces of paper.
The uncertainty comes from a fear of putting myself out there to potential clients and the lingering idea that I must first be perfect in order to coach others, which of course isn’t true. I can’t imagine a life/health coach having the same depth of understanding without first overcoming some kind of challenge.
I also know that I need human connection in life, and I think that is the allure of coming back to Melbourne. However, there’s still a lot of darkness here for me, and I need to keep my distance to a certain degree.
For now, it’s time to go all in on my coaching practice, as much as I can. Focusing one’s energy to get results is more than just a cliché.
I do need some more practice saying no when things don’t feel right. Or rather, to be more aware of the energy usage for non-optimum projects when I already have a lot on my plate.
Overwhelm is a bitch.